this is insane...its been sleepless nights since that day...i guess i brought all this upon myself...is it solely my fault for keeping it to myself? would it be different if i had let it out? if i had let it out it could turn out to be good or like totally horrible...oh man...how could i let something like this happen? i can't even focus during office hours...i have to do ridiculous things to get my mind of it...its even worse den previously...at least i had someone to blame the last time, but now it seems as if its all my fault...its like i'm killing myself...emotional suicide...
"those questions asked in such innocence have such a piercing effect"
"it kinda hurts"
"i'll get over it i know...but it might take a while...a long while"

@4.40am...another sleepless night...