although i'm like so not prepared for the upcoming big ones, i'm still hoping that april comes and goes ASAP!!! i really need to start doing and settling alot of things...

its kinda insane, but i feel that i need a new life! its not that i'm not appreciative of whatever i have now, its just.....i dunno why...but i'm feeling a need for change!!! huge amounts of change!!! gotta start heading off in the right direction, for one, i feel really guilty that i've been slacking in terms of svc to god...can't blame the circumstances, its not god's fault that such circumstances arise, its just up to me to overcome them...he never forsakes yet i've sidelined him in my priorities...tsk tsk tsk...

i seriously hope to take the upcoming hols to realign myself...and hope everything will follow suit and fall into place...hope the family situation improves...3 mths is a long time...miracles can happen...i'm still alive!!!!!!!!

as a start i wanna change my blogskin!!! but can't find no nice ones!!!

aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh....so many many many many many many many many things going on!!!! more shocking news today!!! seriously right...how can someone be so bloody fake and yet no one can tell?! and what's worse is that she can manipulate everyone so well!!! YUCKS!!!!! and i freaking allowed myself to be played by her...i don't understand how such people can exist and manipulate so successfully to the point that they still appear angelic...manipulate others for your own gain! don't you feel no sense of guilt at all?! to think i actually bothered to think of you as somewhat more than an accquaintance...you were just making use of me to get to him!!! how disgusting is that?!

and dude...seriously...stop it! gain some awareness! u need a crash course on learning how to become sensitive...previously i would have given you that wake up call, but seriously i don't think i can now...

tucked away from view, stacked under a tower of diversions, yet somehow managing to make guest appearances which are welcome with ultimate apprehension...the view is getting smaller, but the scenery refuses to budge...