got to know this individual by chance and am really inspired by his drive to pursue his passion..he's so determined to get what he wants and ya can tell that he really puts in his utmost effort in every single opportunity and chance that presents itself to him..i can only wish i had half the guts and drive to fuel my own passions..its ppl like him that are really deserving..i really hope all goes well for him later today..

am really happy for a certain someone and tt other someone..i feel like a happy mama..lol..pls cherish each other..don't worry bout what-ifs and what-nots..what matters is what's-now..ya both really love (ya can kill me for using this but i don't care..lol) each other so there's nth else that should override this base..

got to know the story of a certain someone..i really hope he sees the light soon before its too late..i know its hard and all..but he really needs to be by his mum's side..she really needs him right now and so does he..ya she may yell and make it a living hell...i've been thru that, but underneath it all she's hurting as much as he is..they really need to help each other tide thru this trying period..we feel sad for him and really hope he comes out of it well..its gd tt he's changed in certain ways, but i really hope he and his mama can be there for each other..as much as he's feeling empty, she's feeling the same..in fact, maybe even on a greater magnitude (she's the one who's spent the longest and most personal times with him)..i know what its like losing a dad, and it ain't easy for the family..but sticking tgt really helps..as sadistic as it sounds, knowing someone else is gg thru the same pain and needs to heal the same wounds does help..it makes you feel that ya gotta be stronger for the other family member..don't want him to be suffering the pain i'm gg thru now and live in regret..i guess all we can do now is to pray for him and his mum..

Note to Lee Shu Ling!!!
Roomie!!! thanks for being there for me! if ya weren't there for me to talk to yest, i probably would have died from drowning in my own tears! i know we really talk alot of shit, bitch bout others, and make fun of each other at every singe opportunity we get, but deep down we care for each other..i cannot say this in ya face cos i would really feel like puking, but i'm really glad we became roomies and i got the chance to know you apart from being 1/4 of our VIP gang back in the heyday..i have really seen you change over the years and i'm really happy for you..you've matured..i swear! i'm not saying you were immature to begin with la...but ya get what i mean right? and our range of topics suddenly widened this week lol..and i'm glad we could talk bout those incidents..don't make fun of me, cos we both experienced the same thing..and all tt your worrying bout now should not take precedence over ya know what right? EXAMS! (what were ya thinking huh? TEEHEE) Babi Ponteh! i crave kaoyu so bad i think they might needa put me in rehab to curb my withdrawal symptoms!

one thing i learnt from this past yr and all that has happened is to live for the NOW..and not be afraid to feel..if i'm angry now i'd yell, if i'm sad i'd just freakin wail, if i'm happy god knows what i'll do..i may appear insane emotionally, but who's to define what's sane..no ones knows what they are actually doing, so i choose to live out my sanity as such and ya might probably be the insane one if ya think otherwise..

for now..i can't freakin wait for exams and the fyp report to be over so i can settle the family probs and just escape to somewhere to take a breather from all that is (soon to be was) 2010..

Ok..this is probably the most incoherent post ever, but coherency lies in it being a part of a day in my life..