Today i had the best belated b'day celebration ever! cos i know the amount of thought and effort that went into planning the day! although things didn't go as plan its really alright! Maybe i'm just not fated with doggies..lol

Instead of a doggy day, we engaged in serious discussions following which we then headed to Carousel! =) I can't believe you actually thought of taking a cab there la! (from orchard mrt lei!) hahahahaha..the spread, especially dessert spread was nice and as usual, we ate like pigs and talked bout stuff..

oh i have to mention this! while we were queing up at the buffet line, this insensitive bitch said this: "WA! so many people! they come from japan ah? earthquake then come here to eat" and she repeated it twice! SERIOUSLY! i wanted to slap her!!! WTF is her problem?! Where is her sense of humanity! and her equally insensitive fren had the cheek to laugh! She thinks she's so witty coming up with such a line huh?! SERIOUSLY! such ppl DISGUST ME!!! to make things worse, they were sitting at the table behind us!..thank god the food was able to keep me distracted and it was too delicious for me to waste it by stuffing it down their insensitive throats! oh well..unfortunately such ppl exist..

well..after over-eating we decided to work it off..so we shopped around..let's just say it was a somewhat fruitful trip =)

Thanks so much for the day!!! i really appreciate it!!! thoughts and efforts and company are immaterial gifts that i gladly accept and value way over other things!!! as cliche as it sounds, but tt's my standpoint =) THANKS AGAIN!

sidenote:
my dear ou xiang has just given me another reason to admire her! Stoofi just threw out an idea on getting dancers to come tgt in a joint effort to do something for Japan and within 48 hrs DANCE FOR JAPAN was formed! =) i'm glad to be a part of this so i can do my bit too..wanted to do something but didn't know how to go about helping and stoofi provided this avenue. The ex-co is now working hard to realize our goals of the concert in 3 weeks time and we will get there with the help of kind partners! Everyone is so passionate about the cause and its so heartwarming to see dancers all working through to the wee hours to stage this event to help raise awareness for the avenues through which the greater public can do their bit for Japan too! =)

Apart from FYP, this week is off to a great start! =)

ok...as expected..i only blog when i'm feeling down..its not that i haven't been happy..in fact these past few weeks i've really been quite happy...but reality has to kick in and wake me u from my dream..

i hate this bit about me..i only put effort into things that i really wanna do..other than tt i kinda heck the rest..well..fyp's been one of tt..

so HOCC has ended..i really enjoyed the feeling of performing with SRETHGIE..we really did put up a gd one..see it to believe it.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8jDbk4XoCQ despite my slipped disc, i still wanted to be part of this..and i did..

why can't i apply the same determination to my fyp..a few setbacks and change of topics..hell i've encountered so much crap in my life, what's a few in FYP? i need to want this..i need to do this fyp..why the hell am i procrastinating this much? i have never procrastinated this much in my entire academic life..i thought FYP would be fun cos i would actually be able to study something i like and have fun doing it, but not having the opportunity to do so i switched topics and somehow things don't seem to be on my side at all..i keep telling myself and others not to worry and tt i'll pull through..i'll do it..i'll make it good..but i'm seriously starting to have my doubts..just like how i thought i could do well in dance despite my slipped disc, i still can't excel..even without my slipped disc i ain't exactly good..urgh!

everytime i want to do something, i'm met with setbacks and this puts me off..then i chuck it aside and find something to immerse myself in, escape into..i found this in dance..but i NEED to get things done! why is it that my passion lies outside of what is required of me?.. i know everyone faces the same problem and is able to suck it up and deal with it..i guess i am just not up to it..i have 30 days to hand in an FYP..maybe i really should do something easy..but the C grade really might kill..but what difference does it make? i ain't exactly a top student..

urgh! insufficiencies just plague me!