ok...as expected..i only blog when i'm feeling down..its not that i haven't been happy..in fact these past few weeks i've really been quite happy...but reality has to kick in and wake me u from my dream..

i hate this bit about me..i only put effort into things that i really wanna do..other than tt i kinda heck the rest..well..fyp's been one of tt..

so HOCC has ended..i really enjoyed the feeling of performing with SRETHGIE..we really did put up a gd one..see it to believe it.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8jDbk4XoCQ despite my slipped disc, i still wanted to be part of this..and i did..

why can't i apply the same determination to my fyp..a few setbacks and change of topics..hell i've encountered so much crap in my life, what's a few in FYP? i need to want this..i need to do this fyp..why the hell am i procrastinating this much? i have never procrastinated this much in my entire academic life..i thought FYP would be fun cos i would actually be able to study something i like and have fun doing it, but not having the opportunity to do so i switched topics and somehow things don't seem to be on my side at all..i keep telling myself and others not to worry and tt i'll pull through..i'll do it..i'll make it good..but i'm seriously starting to have my doubts..just like how i thought i could do well in dance despite my slipped disc, i still can't excel..even without my slipped disc i ain't exactly good..urgh!

everytime i want to do something, i'm met with setbacks and this puts me off..then i chuck it aside and find something to immerse myself in, escape into..i found this in dance..but i NEED to get things done! why is it that my passion lies outside of what is required of me?.. i know everyone faces the same problem and is able to suck it up and deal with it..i guess i am just not up to it..i have 30 days to hand in an FYP..maybe i really should do something easy..but the C grade really might kill..but what difference does it make? i ain't exactly a top student..

urgh! insufficiencies just plague me!