these few days my principles keep getting tested..i really wanna take a short breather somewhere, and frens asking me to go on hols with them and are willing to fork out muula for me..i appreciate the gesture, but its really against my morals..i can't bring myself to enjoy myself using my frens' money..i understand ya guys feel i need the break, but it just doesn't sit right with me, i'll feel worse going there n holidaying on ya money..though i sooo badly wanna go for a breather..the best thing ya guys can do for me is to enjoy on my behalf yeah? don't feel bad leaving me here, i am honestly fine, i whine, but i accept tt i have other things to prioritise above this..though its a weee bit of a depressing matter, through this, the realization that i have frens like ya guys who care for me..just really makes me happy..i'm so glad tt i have frens like ya guys..thanks =)

yesterday, the talk with C really..ya..i'm trying my best n  i'm progressing..though its the least of my worries now, i'll try my best to let my guard down n be more open n willing to try next time..i promise..

after all tt talk with C, you surfaced..kinda interesting how events take place..well..it really ain't ya fault..there were really good times n i thank ya for them, i really do..those not so positive moments, we take them in stride yeah? thanks for the great memories..now its time we make new ones on our own yeah? don't worry bout me, yeah i'm kinda going thru alot now, but i promise ya i'll be fine..and the pact doesn't stand anymore! stop thinking bout it! its not healthy! ya got a new pact to stick by! anyway thanks for standing up for me time and again..she's such a bitch..i thnk she knows..hahahaha..

tml's another day..live it..